I woke up before anyone else this morning, so I actually have a chance to do some writing. Yesterday's OR went fine and I was home in time for The Soup...mmmm, mindless viewing. We had some glitches...I can't go into everything, but it involved one doctor giving another doctor a piece of his mind for a good 10 minutes while I held the phone(doc on the recieving end was scrubbed in). Both attendings. It was nice not to be the one yelled at for once, usually the TC bears the brunt of everyone's frustrations, but I felt for him.
My last 2 cases that I've gone out on have pretty much been to relieve a coordinator who'se already gotten consent and manage the patient until the OR and then do the OR. It's nice not to be emotionally involved sometimes, especially after this case. You don't always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need. So I guess I've been given a little break to recharge my mental batteries.
And I love going to the OR. I only worked there for a year-I just like clinical management too much to stay in the OR. I like being in the ICU with the patients and following them day to day. I hope to go back to school soon and get my nurse practitioner with maybe a first assist on the side. When my first daughter was little, I though long and hard about going to med school, but I didn't know if I wanted it enough to devote a decade of my life to it and all the sacrifices that'd go along with it. Once you're a doctor, you can't really turn around and say, "well, I have a million dollars in unpaid student loans, but I think I'd really rather be an artist." I think there's still a frustrated surgeon lurking inside me...it's so amazing to be inside a person, really seeing what anatomy looks like and cutting and sewing and fixing things. I'm still bitter that nurses don't get gross anatomy or even a look at a cadaver cut open once. (At least at my school.) But that's me-the happiest day of 5th grade was when I learned we'd be dissecting frogs.
Anyhoo, last weekend was really quiet and I'm due for an allnighter-we're already pretty busy this weekend, so I'm gearing up for anything.